I have been BJ for tow weeks,but I can not adapt to the circumstance in this city,the weather,the temperature,the foods and all  habits of daliy life...those all are very very strange to me what make me feel unhappy...

   I have to stay at this city for half a month,because I would finish my study and take through many exams necesserily.Of cause,there was an important reason is that I have to be seperated form him for a long time.I can not look  his smile face ,as while as listen his voice and laugh.

   I brought a new SIM card for my private cellphone 11,May,and I called for him at once that noom.He was not at home,I was so disappionted.I wrote a massage to him:I had called for you,but you were not there.this is my new card in BJ,you can call me if you are free,I hope to have a talk with  you. He did not answer me that day.The disappiontment became large more than before.

    In the morning of 12,May,I have an exam.After I went out the classroom,I sent on my cellphone,there was a massage appeared immediately,it was"good morning!",although it was just one sentence,I felt so happy  seemed like on the moon.

    Although I don't know why he gives me the task,I still take to my heart to finish it ,the task  was so completed that it almost occupied  all of my holidays about Labor Festvial. As it is he what me do ,so I like to try my best to  finish it.

   I will go to BJ tow days later,and I promised him I can take over task what he asked me to do.Now I can hand over it to him before I leave to BJ.

   Maybe I just was a little piece in  a board game in his life,like all of the great man's ramantic stroy ...If it is  ture ,that must be my pity!

   Leave from him and leave from the matter of quarrel,perhaps that will be better for me.

   I missed him everyday and every night,but I could't contact to him in  this period specially. The only one thing what can I do is  wait,just wait.The quiet make me so scared,I dont't know what would be happened next,I just wait and pray for God like an orphan in silence.

   Thanks for my dear father,he heared my earnestly hope and pray for at last!

    We had a meeting this afternoon.I made a speech about a suit of work program.Most of people agreed with my plan,but there was only one person still wanted to find fault with me.At that moment,he said something to support me,obviously he knew that guy  intented to make some trouble to me ,that must would  make me awkward.I was still smiling with no word,and looked aroud everyone who were present at the meeting.

    I was so happy that he standed by me from begining to end.While that guy insisted on his oppions what did not have dependable foundition enough,he prevented him directly,he said: "if you can not give us more suggestion for what can let the program become more better,I think the discussion about this can be over now."The others in the meeting expressed to agree with his  oppion.Then,the face of that guy  turned to black .

    I am so thanks for he supports me in the act without any hesitate.I also thanks for he dare to give me his hands while someone created difficulties to me,he said a lot of things  help  to explain my thougts to everyone.I can feel and touch the warmth and kindness all those come from him...

   In this period,something happened in the cities where I was lived in.someone's life and destiny were changed greatly by something.It is like a great eartheguake,many people was lived in panic and unpeaceful.Nobody knows what will happened in future,as while as who will be the next.

   I am sure the reason why he did not contact to me must be for it.I knew he wants to protect me to leave from the trouble far away.There was no call,no massaage between us,even though with no talk.The only thing we can do is look at on one sight each other with a smile secrety.

    It was the most dark period in my life that make me can not find the way to go ahead.He seemed like go away from my side.I am not able to do anything,no matter in office or at home.I had many  dreams about him and me everynight.I missed him so much!

    Of cause I knew all of the argument from Buddha dharma was correct,I still could not help to guess and guess.It was adversity that can not be avoided  by humannity.In fact,I am just a normal woman,I can not take the arguments from Buddha dharma to guide everything in my life,especially in feelings.

     He came back from BJ today,and I met him in canteen this noon.We just exchanged a smile when I was ro brush past him.Although it was just a moment,his smile still like a group sunshine make my heart to be bright and happy.

    I should take the arguments of Buddha dharma in my mind:no guess,no pain.He promised me that I must be trust him anytime and anywhere.So I should try my best to accept his promission without no doubt.

    I have a cellphone just call for him.Sometimes I write a pome to him,sometimes I send to him a lovely picture.He was so busy in recently,that he almost had no time to answer my massages.I still do those work on that cellphone,no matter he answer me or not.

    It's one month that we haven't contact to each other,in fact ,I wrote massages to him,but I still did not receive  any word from him.He went to BJ last week,I think he did not took that cellphone with him.So,my missing could not sent to him right now ,that let me drop in deep unhappy...

    A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you，only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.

    The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch swing with，never say a word，and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

    It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

    It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone，an hour to like someone，and a day to love someone- but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

    Don't go for looks；they can deceive. Don't go for wealth；even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright.

    Dream what you want to dream；go where you want to go；be what you want to be，because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.

   Love begins with a smile，grows with a kiss，ends with a tear.